so the weekend has once again flew by in a frenzy and i have to prepare myself to get ready for my first real day of school - something that i am not particularly looking forward to.

the coming semester looms like a dark foreboding cloud in the distance threatening to explode into countless raindrops soaking me to the skin, leaving me drenched out in the open to face the fury of nature.
yes.
i am afraid.

and then theres the play.
i know i need to have faith and not lose hope
to continue to motivate and push and believe that everything will fall into place and that it will all work out.
but with every passing day 
and the date of the performance screaming at me in bold
i feel the urgency and frenzy building up inside me
and that same overwhelming helplessness when i have no idea what else there is i can do.

please take me to my wonderland